for my dear parents,
today is the reportcard day,mom is following,and dad is not going,because they know im having bad result
so mom is fetching me in and going in,the moment waiting,the moment im afraid that something bad is gonna happen already,teacher telling my parents that my attendence are really bad,and my result is going down.
mom face calm infront of the teacher and smiling.i thought that mom giving me a chance to being a good student.but its not.the moment we get in the car.she start scolding me.how could i actually get this kind of marks at exam,am i faking to being sick?i wanted to answer it no,but i dint,i know the moment or second i answer them.they will scold me out loud,all i can do is keep silent in the heart and hiding the truth in my heart.hold on my tears being strong to face this,mom is keep on scolding,until the word came into my mind and start killing my fragile heart. :"you are just fake yourself like a clever schoolgirl,you are just piece of shit with human body,wasting my money to let you tuition also,u better staying at home sleep,online,blog ur stupid blog,lying every people,and be a drama queen.finish eat,sleep,eat,sleep..this is your best job..your brother sister also dont give a damn on you anymore,how clever are they,how stupid are you as a sister.you say you wanna get into collegh?dont ever think that.no collegh is gonna want you,since your resulting is so ugly.and your report card can keep for so long,i think hartamas dont have any student keep the reportcard lo..you are unique,yea really,becuase no one could be that stupid like u..",well..the distance to back to my home are actually just have to took 5 minute,but its like 30 minute to going back,scolded me,saying me,dating la,online la~how useful is that..if you dont agree me and him,why are you helping him so much.im disappointed on my parents full 100% now..i tried to find something can cure this actually.but no..the moment i back to home,i run to my room.lock up myself like 8 hours without coming out.i know who is gonna laugh at me,who is gonna insult me.im not hiding.is im not really interested on your words auntie's and parents.my heart are totally having a scar and it still bleeding like river.i hope i can forgive you my parents.but not now.i know you guys are disappointed on my result.but im disappointed on the words are way too harsh on me please.both of you want me to understand you.yes i tired to.but did both you ever think of my heart is it fragile enough?both of you made me to the world.but both of you are just thinking that you know me and understand me so well..the way you said how much you guys know me.are wrong.yes im in pain right now.not just on the body or anything.my heart too..i feeling to go to hospital to do all check up for my body.let both of you speechless.im really in pain on my stomach are actually not i wanted too..who love to suffer in pain.no one to
dad.u saying im taking it as excuse.ok..one day if im free im going to hospital do check up..dont worry.truth is going to prove in your eyes.
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for my dear ex-friend
well its been a few days not talking with you guys anymore huh?i've been so much free time alone with new friends,i learnt and what is call bring your eyes to know friends.michelle,i know how sensitive that when u know he asking me out.because im planing to help you.but at last i can see that how is your sister helping you.protect you.the words came out from your mouth is.we are not best friend.well..heart are broken actually.but i have to face that fact that who are you.all i wanna tell is..i dont meant to hurt you or whatever.but i tried to helped.but im not going to help you anymore since that so much misunderstand is there.thanks for being like a twins sister with me before.thanks for teaching me homework and borrow me homework to copy.hsing shan.i dint know what happen.but i really dont care anymore..i knew that i dint do anything stupid to make you angry.but now since you became like this.ok.im leaving it if you love to being like this to me.EVERYONE OF YOU WHO HATE ME.thanks for hating me so much.but please save ur time to study not just being a girl or boy hating people so much.wasted time.im leaving you guys now.so that my new life can go on.wish you guys can have a very best in your life ok?take care and be healthy.love u guys.
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