well its been a very "long"time dint post anything at my blog
im not very fine as usual recently..i tried to deal with it but i can't seriously
i know i have alots of things to do and busy with behind the busy i was freaking sad and crying alone man...
in my room with my blanket on seriously..i can't let people knows im crying with lots of tears seriously
some people might not understanding me that well...or even thinks that i really take this as very big deal..why am i take this as a very big deal is because that i loves my friend,dont misunderstand,is love for friends,not like LESSBIAN???well i know who are the one who saying this,i will just keep quiet
and i receive a sms from a friend.he saw my blog..read and he calling me not to give up,thanks dude
some words for u dude:
thanks for sending this msg for me,it made me feeling better..
i know i take her as my twins sister.but she dont want to.how to force her...i can't force her to being friends with me.i've been fake smilling to everyone damn long.she even wanted to being firends with other but not me.just because she thinks i did everything wrong by telling a guy that she loves him.i tried to help already.but i really can't help.just keep crying and crying.cant make me feel better because things is still same.some people might leep said this :"if thing still the same,why the fuck are u still crying?"let me tell u this
BECAUSE IM FUCKING SAD AND HEART BROKEN!
can u believe that i treat her as my twins sister.but now she jsut neglected me in the spot now.dont wanna talk with me.im vfery deep stress with this.
i would be hurts forever for this.yes.FOREVER.
and i could know that me n her.are different world now..
she loves to talk other topic but not mine.i tried to carry topic but she neglected it.fine.i give up now
SERIOUSLY MY LIFE IS SUCK SHIT!
look at me
i look like shit.SHIT!!!!FUCKING SHIT!
way not being better at all..being faking my smile,fake like im deal with it
now...im NOT GONNA FUCKING CARE ANYMORE.if you are happy with this.OK I WISH U GOOD LUCK WITH YOUR FUTURE.THINKS WHAT PEOPLE THINK YOU ARE.im not gonne be with it any fucking more.
LET ME TELL YOU GUYS THIS.IM ENOUGH BEING LIKE THIS ANYMORE.
its fine that you guys dont know how i felt..im enough of it..yes im shouting now
IM ENOUGH OF IT!!!
and u!u can keep neglected me as much as you wanted.its shows that u make no sense to neglected me at all
anything u want ok?im fucking leaving you!FROM NOW ON!


p.s:thanks yiyi and kahyian wifey around me,and dude.thanks for accompany me extra class.