i am not happy and not very well.
3:13 AM
i am so done and so sad about it..
all my sacrifice just meant for nothing
i still remember what are we
what we used to be.
i still remember when you need me.
all i did was calm you down
make's you feel much more better while giving you a hug
make you safe.
make you better
you are such a negative person i ever met in my life
you never think's happy thing to make yourself even better
but you never ever hug me and calm me down
just leave me alone over there.
left me to cry alone all the time.
you never hold my hand tight.
never pull me to your hug like i expect
you never put yourself in my situation to feel how i feel
yes i do have a mistake and ugly past.
but it doesn't mean.
you can step on it and keep remind me
i am a human,not a animal.
there is like a replay button in my brain that
how happy we were
how lovely we were
but damn you,what the hell you treat me like.
like i am nothing,not priceless at all.
i am too dumb,i am not checking your phone.
not checking all your stuff at all you know
but i end up this shit.
i am too calm to face the problem that you had created
but it doesn't mean i have to end this shit for you
you are the one should be doing this
i always seek for a chance to talk with my friend that
how happy and sweet we were.
but i am so done you know..
do you still remember..
i cooked porridge for you
because you were sick
i woke up early morning for you.
cook it for you and buy medicine from pharmacy
what you said to me was
my porridge is not nice.
taste sucks to the max
maybe i am not a cook chef but i am trying
i never cook things for any boyfriend i had in my past
always tell myself,to leave you.will be better
but i end up so many or i should say too many things to face.
-lyrics-
sometimes we fight
sometimes i cry
why dont i just tell him goodbye
sometimes i should but sometimes i dont
build up the strength to say that its wrong
sometimes i hate
sometimes i love
sometimes i hurt
sometimes i dont
sometimes i wait for him to change
but its okay i just got to pay (yeah)
and i dont ever wanna leave em' alone
they say im brain washed
but im in love with this man (yeahhh)
keep tellin myself that its not worth it
i already know i dont deserve it
but if its from you i dont mind hurting
this is my perfect nightmare
so when will i wake up and scream
no way , no way , no way ,
no way , no way , no way , no way
but if its from you i dont mind hurting
this is my perfect nightmare (perfect nightmare)
sometimes i keep it cool
sometimes i let 'em know
sometimes i even pack my bags to walk out the door
sometimes i feel safe
sometimes i really dont
sometimes i promise that im ready to let 'em gooo
but i dont ever wanna leave 'em alonee
they say im brain washed
but im in love with this man (ooooh)
keep tellin myself that its not worth it
i already know i dont deserve it
but if its from you i dont mind hurting
this is my perfect nightmare
so when will i wake up and scream
no way , no way , no way ,
no way , no way , no way , no way
but if its from you i dont mind hurting
this is my perfect nightmare (perfect nightmare)
hopein hes changing
but im scared hes not
cant see a way to leave him
he open'd my eyes
and i..
keep tellin myself that its not worth it
i already know i dont deserve it
but if its from you i dont mind hurting
this is my perfect nightmare (perfect)
keep tellin myself that its not worth it
i already know i dont deserve it
but if its from you i dont mind hurting
this is my perfect nightmare
so when will i wake up and scream
no way , no way , no way ,
no way , no way , no way , no way
but if its from you i dont mind hurting
this is my perfect nightmare (perfect nightmare)
no way , no way , no way ,
no way , no way , no way , no way
but if its from you i dont mind hurting
this is my perfect nightmare (perfect nightmare)
this song...really cut me even deeper
why??because this is truth.all my feeling is in this song..
damn you boy,am i just not good enough for you?
damn you,seriously.damn you
damn my heart is bleeding for you
can you feel?no..you don't..
goodnight..
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