so far my life now is normal and quietly perfect,just deep down in me wasn't so sure i am happy like i used to be like i am with shawn...it just different right now, the sparkly surprise i used to have. the fireworks kind of relationship to have, sneak out for a date and outing..was intense..was great....was so high school...i missed high school,i miss those moment that i made mistake...i miss everything but now whatever i am going through now was a phase for me going through like being an adult so i have to like..sort of handle everything by my own right now.well, it is tough and feeling unusual for me.i really hope i can do this good i can do this well. please buddha, bless me..