i've been having this painful cramp (not a period cramp) for quite a few days already.

it has effected my internship and my daily routine. i can't even go to gym, sauna wasn't helping me to ease my pain anymore, this is just not normal. i brought myself to doctor, had medicine and on leave for my job for a day, this is just not normal.. and i have been drinking hot / warm beverage ever since this painful cramp decide to kick in so bad, i know it's no help for me to be like so caring on my own when my body decide to fuck me up or something... well, it has effected my focus on my editing that my boss has given to me few days ago, feel so useless and helpless, if i am not getting any better imma treat myself to ultrasound treatment and see what is really going on in my stomach or uterus or something.

i feel very emotion and i know i have some pms or some shits going on because i did not have period for almost two months anyway, i am not pregnant, that is why i take medication. should i like turn myself to vegan and sleep 10pm every single. hope my ambition

 (working as a broadcasting crew actually allow me to sleep early)

i feel really sad and in pain right now. i have no idea what i should do....

and i decide to install the sim but fuck things just not working but giving me tons of error.

fuck my week lately. just fuck it.

goodnight whoever is reading this.