6:26 PM
Hey wassupppppwell today is exam day 2 :)
Math & Science
what a tough day
i almost blank both papers
im sorry Cik Azila
i really no idea of Science
and math
WELL....
im not good in math always
if i will pass this world wil change
its true
i cant remember how to do
because i dint do more practice i think
i promise i swear i will do well on it
FORGIVE ME ALL THE TEACHER WHO
TEACH A DUMBASS LIKE ME :(
i was trying to sleep so hardd
:(
but i only can sleep a while
becoz the table cant let me sleep well
i remember yesterday night i set the alarm
but i cant believe that i close it!!!
AND CONTINUE SLEEPING!
GOD DAMN IT
so ya
my mom grab me up on the bed again today
and my sister mad because she dont want to go school
so that today i tired on class
sleep A WHILE
JUST A WHILE
bla bla bla
well my malay teacher give me his blog link
to view his blog
haha
all about his history and sports :)
well im not understand
he very sayang the student who improve a lot
haha
i did improve but not so much la
i wish this time exam i can more better
:)
god bless me please :)
actually today i should went to tuitionBUT LEH
when i get out from the car
and went to the stair
get in to the class
i saw a lot of form 5 students
god...shit...
no more form 4 tuition
lol
i was trying to running to the office room to grab
a phone to call my mom
and the
WORST AND EVER IS
WORST AND EVER IS
i have to run to another block building
god damn ittttttttttt
hate ittt
on the way rush to office
Suddenly got a car horn at me
is Chee Kai
well
let me tell you something bout him
He is my childhood friend too
his parents and my parents are buisness partner
but now is God brothers
Chee Kai is elder than me 1 year
his 17 this year
back to the story
he horn at me
and wave me to meet at the gas station
well i walk to the gas station and get in the car
so yeah..
we dont even see each other like that before
hmm..weird
haha but emergency time
so that i just asked for his phone
to call my mom
inform her that teacher cancel
FORM 4'S TUITION
well for selangor they olide finish their exam
so im the only one that study at kuala lumpur
ok
that yes my mom called him to fetch me back
to my mom office
on the way back to the office
we were talking
im asking him why he were here?
he told me that because his father and my daddy
having drink in the cafe
well...
i was saying ok
and i ask why dont he stay with his daddy
because his usually stay with his daddy
he said he is boring with them
so that he drive his father car walk here walk there
but he dint expect will see me
i was ok...
afterward we were like silent in the car
im looking outside
he just driving
when i arrive we just said goodbye and done
haha
my mom was asking me how do i felt
lol???i wondering what she thinking
she know im dating baby 2 years
well
looks like she think something else
wadever :)
BAD NEWS HEREMe & Him are quarrel
so that we need space to chill and know each other more
so i decide to have space
i wont disturb his life
anything everything of him
so that i wont will feel better
but its so hard to me
i love him
i really do
but he dont understand me
usually i cry
he will cheer me up
text me that he wants me to be alright
call me many times even though my mood its not
GOOD
but now....
he hurts me like shit
i talked nicely to him
but its too hard to let him know
i spend so much time to change it back like before
but yea
tried so hard
change back my tears
i was pretending im fine through the phone
actually im holding tissue and wipe away my tears
THIS IS WHAT HURTS THE MOST
IN THE NIGHT
trying let my voice be great and he wont know im crying
but the most let me shock is
he call me to stop it
and he trying to close his phone..
i was hopeless and dissapoint
:'(
my heart totally telling me that
He felt bored of it ad
the moment i told him evverything and finish
texting the sms for him
afterward
im holding my pillow and cry it out loud
what a worst night
i decide to have space so that i wont get hurt from him
yet now...
he keep on sending me that he loves me
sms,msn...alot
but i have to sayang myself this time
i did love him as much as deep as u guys imagin
2 years together with him
its not easy...
but now every single words of him
IT WILL KILL ME INSTEAD USING ANY WEAPON
his a type of guy that straight forward
he wont care my feeling
just blame me,screw me
..............................
i have to be alone for these days
so that he will know that weather that he still need me a not
ok la
seem like this post is too long
i gtg niteeee
wish me good luck for my exammmmmmm
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