I am having a little thoughts here, i am a 21 years old girl/women i don't know?but what i have seen in my life so far is quite too much lately, getting so much lies and bull shoots are going on in my life, i need a break, i need to stop caring and giving too much although i don't ask for anything back but at least treat me like a human, i am only human, it is not necessary for me to help but i give all my best.

Probably this is one of my weak point to people,yes, people seeking for help some time (most of my time) but i give my all to them just to full fill their wish over something they need, and i always ended up alone although i need help, yes i have Vince but some times it just scary and sick to see how people used you and stop talking to you out of sudden.I may be a joker some times but i know whoever smile or laughed the brightest always the most loneliness in their life, included me, yes i have almost everything in the world but just so you know that i have something i want too, and i seldom get it back for working hard for it, Love. not that kind of relationship kind of love, it just how you treat people after they help you. i always expecting people is going to treat me just like how i treat them, but fuck no, they didn't ,they just gonna step on your head or just walk away after you helped them.


Life is such a bitch until somehow i can't take it... why aren't we enduring on something by willingly but blindly face it. urgh this has sicken me for years. i don't get it, where is your appreciation? didn't your parent teach you to love? i am so emo until i can type some shit out of no where, i have assignments i have problems too. why can't you guys drop by and send me some love? who say when we have partners in life already means we stop needing you? sigh i just don't know what to do and say anymore, maybe i should go to bed and sleep instead typing all these bull shoots.

it is 1.53 am already. and i am going to end here my readers,whoever out there.

xoxo,lotsa loves.